Back into the Fray

I know I haven't posted anything for quite some time--I actually wasn't sure I wanted to even continue writing. It didn't seem like I had much of a readership (judging by the lack of comments), and venting my frustrations into the ether was beginning to seem like a pretty empty gesture. But over the last few days, I have begun to feel the same compulsion to write that I had when I first began this blog, that it's important to put my ideas and thoughts out into the world, whether I think anyone is reading it or not. I told my friend Batmanchester the other day how proud I am of him for taking a stand and making his voice heard, that it was important and more people needed to be standing up and making their voices heard. I felt a sharp stab of shame at having to admit that I wasn't even doing it anymore, and decided that I needed to start writing again. I just wasn't sure of the direction in which I wanted to go--politics really isn't my thing and religion is too sensitive a subject for most people--when you're trying to reach people with new insights and ideas, especially people with firm convictions and entrenched moral positions, you can't do it by offending them with radical notions they can't or won't accept, right?

I saw a video a couple of months ago called "The Celestine Prophecy," and it made a profound impression on me. More recently, I discovered the companion books--Experiental Guides, they're called. I've been working through the exercises in the first Guide and have been astounded at the difference it has already made in my life. After having been a borderline (heading into full-blown) atheist for most of my adult life, and having investigated the Goddess-based religions, I am finding myself being drawn back to God. Now, don't get me wrong--I'm not talking about the God of most Christian theologies. Personally, I still believe that their "God" is actually the Devil in disguise (see "The Greatest Trick the Devil Ever Pulled"). My God isn't necessarily male or female, God or Goddess, but more of a Universal Force of Love and Light and Life--the same God described in the "Celestine Prophecy."

I've always felt like I had a mission in life, something that I specifically came here to do. Not in the sense of being arrogant or self-important or anything like that because I'm not, but I don't think it's arrogant to acknowledge the gifts and abilities with which we are blessed (in my case a certain skill with words and language, and an ability to communicate my ideas to others). I still have a lot to learn, but I'm beginning to think that my "mission" is to share what I've learned so far, and so what if I don't reach more than a handful of people--if the Prophecy is right, the actions we take are as important as the results we seek, and maybe in reaching those few, I may be helping move the World closer to it's ultimate goal.